Today I had my one year appointment at the doctor. I wish I could tell you I went today and had an amazing weight loss since last month, but that didn't happen. I actually gained 5.5 lbs. from my last weight in on 8/5. I've had a pretty tough month but I'm getting back on track so I'm trying to stay focused on how far I've come in a year versus how much I gained the past 6 weeks.
On that note, I want to celebrate 50.1 lbs of weight loss in one year! When I look back over the last year I know I've made progress, not only physically but mentally as well. I've learned so much about my "old" relationship with food and I've developed a "new" relationship with food and exercise. For the first time ever I can honestly say "I get it". I get what it takes to be healthy and reap the benefits, and it's hard work, everday... no matter what. That's not to say I NEVER fall off the wagon, of course I do (do you need a reminder?) ! I weigh today what I weighed in April, which means in 5 months I've pretty much maintained. There are things I should have done differently and better choices could have been made, but I don't see a genie in a bottle who's going to grant me the opportunity to go back and "re-do" the last 6 months so I'm moving on.
Today... I am re-committing to my weight loss. I am getting back to basics, and I'm going to get out of the 200's and STAY OUT. I never want to see a "2" in front of my weight again, and I'm not stopping until I'm as far away from it as I can get! I am choosing to leave the last few months of stress and heartache behind and focus on this journey, because in order for us to have a family someday I MUST stay on the path of healthy eating & exercise.
This is a journey that I plan to continue forever. This isn't something I'm doing just to lose weight "for now", I've done that before... and I'm done yo-yo dieting and having a closet full of clothes ranging from a 10-22. Enough is enough. This is my time, and I'm going to finish what I started... I promise you that:)
My next appointment is on October 12th & my goal is to be under 200 again!